Oh my gosh, journal, I just got an e-mail from Katherine and she said that GCM can fund my attendance to the APMUN!!!!!!!!
Oh my gosh. This is such..this is just something that I didn’t really expect.
God must want me to attend this conference. The past weeks…I’ve found out slowly and surely that the smooth transitions I’ve been having with regard to APMUN have been so smooth that there must be something meant for me in Bangkok. I don’t know what it is, just like when I didn’t know what it was back when I was preparing for the Global Youth Summit 2011 a year ago, but I eventually found out in my own way what God wanted for me in the summit and this time, I’m sure that everything that’s happening right now with the APMUN is for a reason. It’s kinda funny that I sound like I’m reaffirming myself like this at this particular time, but whatever. I’m doing this for God. I’m doing this for the people I love, for my family.
It’s kinda funny. A few days ago, mom was watching Alice in Wonderland, the Tim Burton version and I watched along with her, and Alice’s story was just so relate-able. In this version of the story, Alice got back to Underland and everyone expected her to be the White Queen’s champion and slay the jabberwocky thus defeating the Red Queen’s cruel reign in Underland because it was predicted by their oraculum that Alice was going to kill the jabberwocky and Alice was like, “Hyeeell to the No! I ain’t slaying no jabberwocky!” *Insert sassy snapping fingers ryt here. xD*
Just kidding. xD
But yeah, seriously, Alice didn’t want to slay a big jabberwocky ’cause of course she doesn’t know how to slay anything and the task is just plain scary. But in the end, she decided to be the White Queen’s champion and let the sword she was holding do the slaying since the sword “already knows what to do, all you have to do is hold it” (that’s paraphrased, of course). And she wanted to do it for her friends in Underland. For the hatter and Ches. Etc.
There were a lot of symbolisms in the movie which made it a very enlightening view. The humor is also despicably irresistible. 😀
Point is, sometimes even if tasks seem a tad bit too hard, sometimes doing tasks while dedicating it to the people you care about and the people you love are already enough to get you through the fatigue of the task itself. I guess it’s pretty lucky for a person to have people who believe in them so much that it seems pretty stupid to dishonor and stamp on that faith by doing a mediocre job on what a person is doing.
So here’s to APMUN.
To my Lord God, thank you so much. I don’t know what your plan for me is at this moment. I didn’t know what your plan for me was last year during GYS ’11, but I knew that it was going to be a good plan, and it was. Despite all the blunders last year (who could forget the lost passport and the Manila storm, right Lord? ;D), You led me through. I just had to trust my wants, trust You, and everything fell into place. I’m just so resigned right now Lord. Whatever will happen from this way on, it’s all in Your hands. All strength comes from You, Lord.
To Global Changemakers and the British Council, thank you so much for believing in me, for believing in the youth, for believing in us. This might be the perfect time to say that you guys really are amazing, just because you guys have really supported almost 800 young people all over the world and have been behind the development of projects that have tremendously helped the lives of young and old people alike all over the world for the past years that GCM has been running. I am just at an awe with the support that Global Changemakers gives to changemakers all over the world. And I will, to the best of my ability, do my best to be a delegate Global Changemakers will be extremely proud of during the Asia Pacific Model United Nations in Bangkok in a few weeks. To Fran, Gaby, Katherine, and Matt, I miss all of you guys so much and, even though I should seriously leave my faith out of this, may God bless you all more and may goodness continue in GCM. Thank you for being so down-to-earth, for being friends, and for being role models to all of us in Global Changemakers. Truly, I am reminded every time I receive an e-mail from you guys or when you guys support someone or other in the network (and this time, apparently, the someone is me) of all of us during that time we all had in London and the things we learned, the things we were all grateful for, and the magical experiences we all had, even after almost a year after the Global Youth Summit in London.
To my parents, thank you so much for believing in me. You guys are amazing. You have been there for me in the darkest of times and in the brightest. You have never ceased to be there for me. You have always made it a point to make us all happy and even though we have hard times once in a while, just remember that family will always be there for you, too. Us children. I got in, Ma, Pa! 🙂
To those people who didn’t believe in me, who didn’t believe in the power of the youth, I’m sure not everyone intended to be un-supportive. Maybe circumstances didn’t lend themselves to be favorable. But anyway, to those real skeptics out there, I have two words for you and that’s: Global Changemakers. You don’t believe in the youth? You haven’t heard of GCM yet. Check us out. www.global-changemakers.net.
Ah, I’m so excited for the APMUN already!
I’m gonna go and resume intellectual preparations now. Do my best to be a great delegate. I know I still have a long way to go, but, as what my philosophy professor this sem said, the important thing is that you’re approaching excellence, not really that you attain its totality.
This is my last year being a student, my last year to be able to attend a conference like this since Model UNs are for high school and university studes. Let’s make it count!